Alloallo3: Thank you very much. I guess it's small part of "creative language" (at least that's wahat I wanted and tried) but also of bad English.
I meant "calm quiet voice" in Jacob's head.... it's not really "he", or "she".
I feel that the ending needs rewriting... but whatever I try, doesn't seem to fit...
Ambrose - well, yes. Jacob is depressed... but most people I showed this guessed that he is an abused child - by his father. And his mother obviously knows about it, but doesn't really help. That's why he was depressed, that's why he felt dirty, that's why he vented his anger and hate on poor innocent T-shirt. And that's why he was so afraid later.
Exactly how he was abused... that's up to you, a reader, to figure out. Some people said to me it must be sexual abuse, some thought "only" psichycal terror. Anything is fine with me.
