Crawling inside this nauseated shell
Picking and prying the confines within
Drudged up stampedes of sickening memories
Regurgitating a past once safely locked away
Hands greedily upon me again
Breaking my center, the pain courses through
Sticky blood stains my shattered petals
Flower within long ago plucked in greed
Barren gardens decorate my icy heart
Beating only to be massacred again
Nothing since has ever paralleled
Splitting beneath his demented touch
My sickness, I crave it, rape my soul
Never more alive than battered and bleeding
My fantasy, my nightmare, my self worth
All wilted in my spoiled flowerbed
Soiled with his seed, greedily released
Deep within my haunted dwelling
I call out to him "destroy me again"
That is all I've been taught to feel
He is my water and my sunlight
In this garden of my silent doom
He pillages and plunders defeated lands
At the mercy of unforgiving hands
He is my master
My keeper
My memory
My forever