[lost_girl]

Synopsis: One girl's realization that love is non existant and the birth of our hostile humanity.


I couldn't help it. Well, what can I help, there's always going to be something wrong and it will always be your fault.

She stood on a hill, it wasn't very tall or dangerous in any way, yet she stood there as if jumping and tumbling to the bottom would take away her life. Suppose it wasn't her life she wanted to throw away.

Her memory flooded her thoughts as the azure sky began to fade away....
She remembered being a child running with the wind, chasing the clouds and having dreams. She was loved by all and called Princess, life was precious beyond anything else and it was given to her... everything she ever wanted, it was given to her.

The wind touched her hair but she neglected to acknowledge the magic she once found in a simple breeze. She turned her eyes down toward the beaten earth and shed a tear all the angels watched fall. She'd forgotten how they watch her, they never left her but somehow they never helped her. Of course, she's never needed it before. Her life was full of good deeds, smiles, money, power...and greed, lest her imagined happiness fades. She fools everyone the way she's fooled herself. Someday her lack of self-definition had to find her and this day was it.

Everyday had become a lie. Everyone became fake.
It was only me...why'd you leave me and allow my weak soul to befall such a decietful existence?
A lonely girl who felt the time passing, nobody else saw it...they were blinded by such foolishness. A painted happiness in their eyes that they could not distinguish from reality. Everyone of her peoples were told to have a life, they were born. They were told to be happy, they smiled. They gave them children and said, these are your children let them be happy. They all seemed very timeless. They didn't know about angels or the feeling Princess felt on that hill. They didn't know tears and they didn't feel pain.

This is my perfect life! Is this what you have given me? A shallow feeling of being perfect and alone? Can I ask you, why do I feel so empty inside?? Is there anyone out there...is this even real?!
She meant to scream at the sky but the words stayed in her mind as she gazed out into space. The sun had dimed slightly but it was never dark. She didn't allow herself to weep or jump. Instead she turned from the hill and the sky and walked back to a world built on what she thought she had, happiness.

The day began, once again as she returned back home. A small village with smiling people scattered about waiting on her arrival. They cheered as she walked on by with a fake smile that could only fool the mindless human race. The angels kept the people at a distance for all they wanted was to follow her and somehow become her. They didn't know anything about the tear or the sadness; the emptiness. They were completly sheltered from anything real, even time.

What a predicament this has become. What was she to do and why did she never die. She ran to a rivers edge and sat before it, watching her reflection in the flowing liquid. She was the perfection of all mankind. No matter her hair color, the eyes, her fingertips or footprints, everyone who saw her...saw perfection. This wasn't her dream...she expected something real. A reason worth living.

There was a moment of pondering and staring into her own eyes before she broke out into a scream that peirced the village and all of it's inhabitants. A moment of deathly silence followed. The realization of pain grew...the sound of sadness broke out into the sky...and there was darkness, then rain. All the little people ran to the house that was vast in size and beautiful just the same, her house. They all began to wonder what they were doing there and what was this feeling they all had with them, it was new...it was fear.

The darkness seemed to last forever, the people grew tired and closed their eyes only to re-open them hours later in the new daylight. It seemed dull and blurry. A child rubbed his eyes and asked the one called mother, "What happened to Princess?" The mother was speechless. The mother looked down at her hands and around at everyone else, she looked a lot older than she did before this all happened, everyone did. They lived that way for a long time. In the big house that once contained the perfect Princess. It all ended when they began to bicker and could not live together any longer, they spread like a disease and muliplied amongst each other. The days passed, people died...they were sad and uncontrolling.

The princess had not gone back to where everyone else did. She had sat there by the rivers edge and let the rain fall over her mortal face. Her beauty drained from her and she perished. She never had the chance to teach the mindless of the love she had intended on finding. She gave up and her angels became lost. Her loveless life meant nothing, she knew everything that ever possibly existed, every single sin and every beautiful thing...All except love. It corrupted her inside, not her pretend happiness nor her existance of perfection and worship could ever shield her or her world from the destruction brought on by the feeling. The little people will never know the pain they heard, they'll never understand the anguish in her simple thought. They will imagine pain, they'll believe in hurt and always the same disappointment but they'll never know why. Her thoughts had belonged to her alone but she had shown it to them when she thought to herself, If I am here and I gave you my wings...and you gave me all this, the knowledge of everything and yet I do not know love...does it not exist?

[Peppy]

Depressing, woman. Depressing.
It was good. hope to read more from you

[Peppy]

Read, trust me, it's good. I would have choosen it for [PICK], but it doesn't exist apparently.

Maybe the new members will have a say? Hmmmmm...